Do you know this situation when you urgently have to write a paper but your head just won’t let you? That’s the problem I have at the moment. Writing plays a big part in my life and I just miss the free writing. In school there are so many restrictions about how to write and nothing ever seems to be good enough. My teacher says I seem to have a problem with formal and informal English, well duh! I want to write the way I want to and I don’t want to be attached to some rules. Every person has their own writing technique and I would just really appreciate it if mine was accepted for a change. Writing for me is writing with the heart and of course with the brains. But more important, everything that is inside you is just being poured out on paper. This is what writing is for me. I stopped being too hard on myself due to the fact that my papers and homeworks are never the way they should be and I have given up thinking that I wasn’t meant to write at all. That’s utter bullshit if you ask me. I will not give up on this until I realise and acknowledge myself that this really isn’t meant for me. There are people who don’t believe in me and who don’t like the fact that I want to head into a writing career, but who cares? It’s not like I’m going to see them ever again. Who cares? It’s not like I want to be on the very top of things. I mean, okay, NYTimes would be an achievement but that’s only a farfetched dream. And since I am no intellectual a future in some small newspaper/magazine editorial office would be just fine for me. But the best thing would be moving to some other country where Journalists aren’t being looked down at since I get the feeling that this job doesn’t have a good reputation here.
Hence, my goal for now is, write, write and write with the 100% I can give. I know I can do this! My writing might not appeal to everyone but there are a few people that might like it. So, it’s not over till it’s over.
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