Brian Puspos Choreography | From Adam by Travis Garland

ezzy, personal

I believe I always lived the greatest love story, but even the most beautiful stories have their horrid chapters. 7 long years I found myself constantly chasing after something that I thought was my soul mate. I attempted to give my heart away many times within that duration, and realized It was impossible because someone else still had it. During those years I saw it as an opportunity to bettering myself as a man, and all the traits I thought that she deserved, after all she deserved a superman. In the end no transformation into any man could sway her back in my arms. Me being so stubborn and determined never stopped me. As many of you know I always fought what I believed in. Never give up on something you love..but when do you stop being defeated? When does the self humiliation end? Is this worth the pain?
I then realized the simplistic brutal truth that I knew was there the whole time, and didn’t want to accept it. It’s not going to happen. It’s not going to work out. It’s not worth it anymore. I held on when she let go a long time ago. It just wasn’t meant to be. Today marks a really big moment for me. As hard as it is I know I have to.
It’s my turn to let go.

In the end the people that do matter will always be there for you. That’s the real love. I now see that this wasn’t my greatest love story. My greatest love story is yet to be told, and I’m excited to tell it with whoever it may be.
To you:You can’t say I didn’t try lol. I haven’t felt this happy since the day I met you, which is in 4 days. Happy Anniversary? haha but seriously, thank you so much for this journey. You are the real reason why I’m living my dream. You are the real reason why I’m the man I am today. I’d spend lifetimes trying to repay you. Well, at least you know that there is one man out there capable of loving you so much. I thank God for allowing me to share such an experience with a woman so beautiful. I wish you the best as always. Goodbye.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. – 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
I await this :)

The art of letting go. This is a beautiful piece by Brian Puspos and it was the right thing to do to start off by reading his description because the emotions that were set in the moves itself was purely authentic and tingling. Each and every move gave me goosebumps because each one of them was so relatable. So relatable that you could feel every emotion of him inside of yourself. 
His description kind of made me think as well. On one hand it’s quite sad, spending most of your life changing for another person because you think that eventually with all your effort you will be meant to be. On the other hand it’s so hopeful. When the time comes that you realise that letting go is the only way to move on, it’s like all doors of possibilities burst open. I guess, everyone has to go through that in one point of their lives. It’s some romantic tragedy behind living for someone else, bettering themselves for someone else, yet, at the end of the day where does it leave you? You and your Self?
The art of letting go takes a lot of courage. I bet most of you can relate to that, to not know what will happen and to know that some things might get lost along the way. It also takes a lot of trust. Trust in our Lord. It is so easy for us to let all the doubts in. Doubts and fears of the future. However, what I have learned throughout this summer is to let my faith be bigger than my fears and to let go. Letting go is hard, just as you can see in Brian Puspos’ description, and for some of us it might take up to 7 years to realise, however, real freedom and total happiness can only be received by letting go.
For the people who struggle to let go of things, be sure that greater things are yet to come as soon as you decide to let things be and let the Lord control your story on this Earth. The road might be tough and frustrating but we are on a journey and this part of your life is only a bump, stage or new beginning. Patience. Perseverance. Faith.
d.f.t.s.,
Ezzy 
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