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Disclaimer: a very personal movie review.

I’ve had this itch for weeks now. The itch hasn‘t left my side. It only got a lot itchier. Itchier and quite overwhelming. That’s basically the feeling I get when my soul literally bursts out of inspiration and enthusiasm. That’s how I feel about the latest musical movie The Greatest Showman starring Michelle Williams, Zendaya, Hugh Jackman and Zac Efron. The story revolves around Hugh Jackman’s character P.T. Barnum, who is known for establishing what we know now as the entertainment or show business. Messages within the plot line were present, though only subtly, but don’t you worry. We’ll dive into those shortly. 



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Unlike the last couple of years, I feel a sense of peace leaving this past year behind. Upon reflecting back, I’ve come to realize that I will hold these past months dearly in my heart because to my surprise, it’s hard to let go. During New Year’s Eve, I felt this sense of anxiety because I wasn’t ready to let go of this year – I felt comfortable, all set and ready to execute. I’m not quite sure why it’s so hard for me to bring this set of attitude with me in the new year, so I do hope, I’m just having separation anxiety.


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Inspired by Lauren Jarvis-Gibson’s post on ThoughtCatalog I have decided to share with you my 17 ‘harsh but Important Lessons of 2017’. Can you think of your own?

You will find a more detailed yearly recap soon on the blog, so better stay tuned, why won’t you.

1. Love hurts. It takes real courage to love others.

2. Don’t chase after other people’s paths. You have your own. Own it!

3. You’re entitled to nothing. Work hard and deserve it. Everything takes effort.

advent candles stars pastel


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Advent season has finally reached us! I can’t recall the last time I really looked forward to Christmas. I also realised that, even thought my schedule is packed, I really want to put my efforts into preparing myself. Therefore, as small reminders, I just want to share with you what the next weeks will be all about. This week it’s all about hope. Feel free to share these graphics with the people to remind them about what we are anticipating.

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hope jesus is coming advent stars christmas pastel pope john paul xxiii


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Hey you,

clearly, I am writing this in my naive state because whatever I might say now, may or may not happen this year BUT we’d like to stay positive.

The year has actually started quite promising. While watching the fireworks out of my sister’s bedroom window, I felt hopeful. I think I have let go a lot of BS in the last weeks of 2016 which pretty much lead me to feeling refreshed and restarted. I have planned quite a bit for this year though I can already see the anxiety creeping up on me, therefore my mind has gone back and forth figuring out whether some of the plans are realistic or not. But since I do not want this first blog post of the year to be listing down all my hopes and dreams for 2017, I figured, in order to stay sane in the whirlwind called life, I’d rather dot down some of my #NoteToSelfs to remind myself that there are more important things, such as, building character and growth. DARUM, I’d like to share these followings with y’alls by starting off with:


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CAUTION: this post contains 100% bluntness and honesty.

Twenty-fifteen was a year that felt like a longass (excuse my language) marathon! Nevertheless, I knew I needed it: the ups, the downs, the challenges, the successes, the hurts, the love as well as the losses and the blessings. Even though the year started off very tough and emotionally challenging, I wouldn’t change it for anything because it has truly made me stronger. There were a lot of times where I had to put all my energy into fighting off my flaws through accepting and understanding. There were dozens of moments where I had to humble myself and truly remind myself that the world doesn’t revolve around me. And the moments which I am most grateful for are the ones when I started to learn to value myself more. And learned that I truly matter and therefore must not settle for anything less than I deserve. It’s been a hurtful experience stripping everything off and letting go of things that held me back from genuinely being my Self, but just looking back, it was worth the pain and the tears. There were a few moments this year, that made twenty-fifteen immensely memorable to me, and I’d like to share them with y’all:


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Today, I must admit, was quite a tough day. Well, not only today, but ever since the start of the week, I’ve found myself struggling with my time management and also a bit with my energy reserves. It’s gotten me quite frustrated and angry as well, because the will is there, yet the circumstances don’t allow you to do more than you want to. But also, the pressure and the fear is growing every day, which at this point just makes me want to turn back time and start over again. Whenever I’m stuck in my room studying or doing some things for Uni, my mind wanders. Even today, I wasn’t spared with negative thoughts. My mind constantly makes turns around my schedule, the things I have yet to do and also the rendezvous with the people I haven’t seen in ages. And all I can think of is ‘maybe this is too much’?


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“Unlimited forgiveness. Unilateral, unconditional, self-sacrificial love. Love of enemies. Being perfect as God is perfect. Zealous proclamation of the gospel. All these are about mercy.” – Tito Frank Padilla, CFC FFL Servant General

Mercy. This is the year of mercy. Can we all just take a deep breath and feel the emotion when you hear the word mercy. Thank you.

Just by reading the quote that’s stated above, I can feel the power that this upcoming year withholds. For me, this year is such a crucial year to finally change our ways and to faithfully walk beside Him. It’s just something that I cannot explain but my gut tells me, it’s the year of “now or never”. For most of us, we constantly battle with the thoughts of the past, the mistakes and the wrong decisions we made, but for this year’s Advent, maybe we can take the small but big step that heads towards our goals and prepare for the future.

Ever since I’ve known about the theme of the church’s New Year, I’ve always gotten tingles in my body because deep inside I know, that His power will fill each and everyone of us, in ways that we’ve never encountered before. For my part, there have been occasions and times where I deeply felt his grace and mercy. Most especially for situations, that I couldn’t and didn’t want to control, He still showed me that He was in control, even though I always felt like I was not deserving of it. However, He pulled the strings and lead me to a direction with vital challenges that I have yet to face and that I can only overcome with His help. I just realise now, how clever He is – wow. He put my graduation, the congress preps and all other lifetime decisions into one year because He knew I couldn’t handle it without Him. Wow, so good! I just realise now that He gave me His grace to follow His ways because that’s what I’ve always wanted. And even though I am confused and I don’t quite know which move I should do next, I have the feeling that He just wants me to ask for His assistance because, let’s be honest, He put me in this situation because the will affect my future a lot and I don’t want to mess up. And it all starts by showing mercy unto others, like forgiving them for their shortcomings, forgiving them for the hurts they’ve done to me and forgiving them for just anything. And I think we always forget the most important person in our lives – ourselves. It’s time to forgive ourselves too. It’s high time to forgive yourself as well, B. Wow, Lord, you’re good. I’m quite amazed at this very minute because just by writing all this, I’ve received a long trail of realisations and it’s crazy but I’ve also gained a lot of perspective now. For everything that God has placed in our hearts and lives, they are worth praying for because if we want to get the best out of it, we need to put them in His hands to fully unfold.

Maybe I am late to this realisation, maybe not. But honestly, I am really thankful for this realisation because now I know how to fully prepare for Christmas. May God be praised.

Yours candidly, Ezzy.